Where Is My Money

See Waiting Is The Action But Patiently Is The Attitude and the posts tagged in there. Issa lot.

I can’t make these things up. I called about my money.

Apparently, the person I spoke with Thursday didn’t complete all of the necessary steps to ensure that the withdrawal was completed. It may be my fault for getting off the phone.

Now, one may give me a pass to completely lose it. Nope. I get no such pass.

And quite honestly, I am super proud of myself. I believe I remained calm and told the person I spoke with I hoped I wasn’t being rude. He said I wasn’t and that he understood.

I asked to speak to a supervisor. I was under the impression that a new 3-5 days would start. He said that once a processor was assigned it would take 1-2 days.

He also said with the holiday, if it had been done on Thursday, it wouldn’t have reached me until tomorrow or Thursday. I told him I wasnt expecting it until tomorrow. But I wanted to set proper expectatuons.

He said escalating it would hopefully get it processed today. I told him I didn’t need to speak to the manager as long as the issue was noted for training purposes.

While I was finishing up with him, I got a call from the auto body shop. I had to call back. They haven’t even looked at my car yet. They will get back to me later. I kindly said thanks and hung up.

Cuz it doesn’t matter. I ain’t got no money to pay. πŸ˜‚πŸ€£πŸ˜‚πŸ€£πŸ˜‚πŸ€£.

I just wanna say I’m proud of me. A different version would not be at peace. But He gives peace that passes understanding (Philippians 4:7).

He’s doing something. I don’t like it. I don’t understand it fully. I don’t agree with the method or timing. However, I am waiting patiently on Him (Psalm 40:1). I am attempting to be content in the state I find myself (Philippians 4:11). I know that I’m sowing something now that I will reap later (Galatians 6:7).

I know what my future holds. I can see in part why this is happening how it is. It is all a way to get my flesh, me, Karlissa to die and come under subjection.

I gave Him a yes years ago. I’ve tried to take it back. I’ve tried to question if I heard and saw what I even gave a yes to. I gave a fresh yes Sunday.

I gotta line up my actions, words, thoughts, feelings, and emotions with the yes and representing Jesus in the earth.

Easy wasn’t promised. Able was. I can do it because I can do ALL things thought Christ who gives strength (Philippians 4:13).

Whatever you’re facing, you can because He can.

*The last post has arrived! Conclusion Of The Whole Matter

Waiting Is The Action But Patiently Is The Attitude

On 5-15-22 Bishop S.Y. Younger preached a message titled The Waiting Conflict. I decided that day, before he even preached, to leave where I was living to move to VA to join his church. After 10 years of visiting churches and never joining one. Almost did twice. But nah. Lol. The plan was to stop elsewhere in the meantime.

The message was good. I’m gonna watch it again. Because I had no idea it was prophetic for me.

I did write down the title of this blog because that was so good to me.

I hate applying for jobs. I started applying for them immediately. I believed it was possible to have a job offer by Thursday.

I got a call Wednesday for a job interview Friday. I was so excited.

The interview went well. People were happy for me and were claiming the job. Something, the Holy Spirit likely, in me didn’t think I would get the job.

I didn’t. I wasn’t surprised. Maybe a touch disappointed.

I had an issue with my car but was under the impression it wasn’t urgent. Well. Almost as soon as I got off the interstate after returning from the interview, I had to stomp on the brakes.

So frustrating. My car is my office. I do gig work and need my car to work. That was an impossibility.

However, I had a credit card coming. I was gonna use it for tires. I also had some money I didn’t know sitting in an account. I was gonna wait to get it. But, I went ahead and set things in motion. I had a car payment due too.

I had this title in my mind and spirit. I wanted to wait well. I’ve been in a situation where things looked dire but God provided. Sometimes it’s hard to remember where you’ve been when you’re in something new if you aren’t in the habit of rehearsing who God has been.

I had to calm myself multiple times. But I felt like I was waiting patiently and well. But the stuff wasn’t in hand or account.

I got an email about a tracker for the money in the account but I couldn’t find the tracker. I called and the rep said that was an extra layer of security. I was incredulous. 3-5 business days started over.

I made a comment about it and the rep just kept repeating that it was an extra security measure. I told him I had to go before I got frustrated and rude. Something like that. I’m trying to do better and be better. I felt something rising.

I asked my mom to see if someone she knew knew a mechanic. I was trying to be cheap (see Cheap Isn’t Always Better). She got me some info and I talked to someone. We set Friday as the time he’d come. I’m thinking the money or the credit card would arrive by then.

I messaged him and got no response. I called and got no response. I priced cv axles. And I called a couple places. The one that actually gave me a quote over the phone was way more expensive than I considered for labor and parts. The labor price was cool. But, I wanted to spend wisely and not have to spend more in the long run so I decided to just let them do it. The warranty of it all.

At this point, it’s Thursday. I was told they wouldn’t be able to get to my car until Tuesday. I decided to go ahead and have it towed.

I started the process of having my car towed at one something Thursday afternoon. It took like five attempts. Ima be honest, I did lose it at one point. I was slightly rude in my frustration.

I told the first person that I had a destination in mind. He told me to tell the service provider when they arrived. I called the service provider to make sure they were doing what I needed. I also had a flat tire I wanted changed (I had a slow leak for forever and all the tires are used. Hence new tires. That bad boy finally conked out.) and a tow. He said they were only doing a tow and they couldn’t change the destination. He canceled and I did too.

I called back and got a new one scheduled. I was told they can only do one thing per request. I was fine with that. Just tow it. They scheduled it correctly for the place I wanted it to go. I had an estimated time of like an hour and fifteen minutes to two hours. Ion remember. I was a grip though.

The time came and went. I called my insurance company. They called the service provider. I would have called them myself like I did the first one. But I didn’t receive any contact info.

He was gone for a few minutes then said the people wouldn’t answer. He said that he would get another provider or something like that. He got me on the books again. But he didn’t pay attention to the location. He just picked one and didn’t ensure it went to the same place.

I think I was a lil rude to him. And that was before I realized what he did. Because I was frustrated and I needed to be able to leave. And the shop closed at 5:30. I then canceled it again and called back. I went outside so I didn’t have to hear my sister tell me how to handle it. Cuz she def said something about my tone. She was right.

I spoke with someone who was supposedly getting it together but asked to speak to a supervisor before he finished. Mistake. I admit I was impatient with him. He was asking questions the other ppl didn’t ask. Time was closing in. He seemed to be taking his sweet precious time.

I had been holding it together all week. I was losing my grasp on that control. I hung up and decided a supervisor could wait. I never got confirmation. I called back. Nothing was on the books. I was frustrated still.

The rep said I could just schedule the service. I got off the phone and said I would call back. I called the auto body shop and she said I could just let the driver drop it and the key after hours. That made it better. I told her about my tire.

I had stuff from my car in my sister’s garage but she said something about the garage being used over the weekend so I decied to take it to storage which is one of the things I already needed to do.

My mom told me she had stuff in her trunk and may have said something about putting it in her car. I don’t know because I was on the phone. Frustrated already. Frustrated still. I think she had a tone too. Cuz she stays having one. Or, it could have, just in this instance, been imagined bc of where I was emotionally and mentally.

I ended up taking my spare tire out and putting it on the floor of my backseat and putting the stuff back in my trunk. I told the rep at the shop that the spare was there and they could put the rim there after they changed it.

I finally called back for a tow for the evening. I got contact info. It was the same place that supposedly ghosted. Nope. They were behind and the insurance ppl don’t like to hold. I got an eta that would have been fine.

The car was at my sister’s and I am staying somewhere else. But my mom was cool to give the ppl the the key. It kept getting later and later. I was told they had a lot of tows and they are a small operation. They said I could schedule it for the morning.

I decided to do that because my mom didn’t answer after one of the eta updates. I scheduled it for when she would be home at 7-7:30.

You know what happened at this point right? It got delayed. I asked my mom to come get me. She said she would be late for work if she did. I asked the person I’m staying with if her daughter could drop me off. She said yes. But her daughter wouldn’t wake up. She then said I could just drive her car.

Then my mom says she would wait and just be late. I asked her if that was the case why couldn’t she just come get me. She said she didn’t think of that and asked what I wanted. I told her to come get me.

I called the tow company because we wouldn’t be at the house for the new time. He said he’d have the guy call on his way. Which ended up being almost another hour after the new eta. Also. I’m pretty sure my mom wasn’t even late to work. Loot at God!

The person who towed my car told me about a cheaper shop. He also told me they are based like an hour away. Crazy to me that the insurance company isn’t contracting with more people who are local.

Now that I think about it, they probably do. But for me and my life and the lessons in this, I had to get this company.

So the mechanic calls me and asks what’s going on. He says he’ll take a look and call me. In the meantime, it’s been nine of the 7-10 days for the credit card. I gotta pay to get the car back.

It hasn’t arrived to me because it was sent to my aunt’s house. It must have been a default or auto fill address. The only reason I thought about it is because I accidentally sent something else there recently. Sure enough. And with Memorial Day I couldn’t even rush the card.

I texted the mechanic Saturday and got no response. It is now Tuesday. I didn’t even bother with it yesterday because of the holiday. I admit. I have panicked with worst case scenarios in my head. Nonsensical bc what are they gonna do? I am definitely calling around eight when they open up.

I haven’t had much success with all the job apps I put in. I have attempted to question if I heard God or if it was just me. I hate ppl, me included, lying on God. I try to be very careful when I invoke Him when discussing what I heard, felt, or am gonna do.

I believe I did. I believe I’ve received confirmation and reassurance. It only takes one job. I’m in the middle of an application process for one. Several others are government jobs. Those move slowly.

I am trying my level best to patiently wait well. It’s hard being out here with a goal and no concrete plan to achieve it. To have no money coming in. To be at the mercy of others.

But, I haven’t gone hungry, homeless, or without my needs being met. I have been in similar situations multiple times before. This is already long enough. Lol.

And honestly. It wouldn’t be faith or trust if I could see how I am going to get there.

So. I’m gonna pray. I’m gonna rehearse what He’s done and what He said. I think I will call about my money again though. πŸ˜‚πŸ€£ Also, Tricky Trust & Fickle Faith and He πŸ‘πŸΎ Did πŸ‘πŸΎ It πŸ‘πŸΎ Before πŸ‘πŸΎ are companion blogs. Happy reading.

Though we may not like how, He’s never failed and He won’t start now!

*The last two Where Is My Money and Conclusion Of The Whole Matter*

Cheap Isn’t Always Better

I am going THROUGH it right now.

The Scripture that just came to mind is this: We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed; 2 Corinthians 4:8-9 KJV.

This perfectly describes my situation. Just about everything that can go wrong has been going wrong.

But, I am focused on my anchor. When I try to lose it, okay when I did at the beginning of this current transition and some moments since, I bring myself back around to who God is. See Tricky Trust & Fickle Faith.

One of my issues right now is my car. It is stationary. That affects my ability to work my gig job. Which is affecting my ability to pay my car payment. Which will affect my ability to work my job and have a car.

I really wanna freak out and stress out. I have some plans in the works to get funds to get the money to pay. But they are taking forever.

I also asked around for a mechanic. I was trying to do it as cheap as possible. The mechanic has been unresponsive. And he may have given bad advice.

After he didn’t answer the call after the text from the other day, I called around. The prices are far higher than the mechanic or what I wanted to pay.

He will likely do it right. He works in an actual shop. But he is MIA. And I gotta get this together. I had plans for what I wanted to fix and which funds. But, one set of funds is delayed another week. Now, I have to adjust how I’m going to do all that I need to do.

The deadline for the car payment is far closer for comfort than I’d like without actual funds in hand. Especially with a holiday Monday.

But, here’s the thing. In Bible class last night they talked about when Samuel was off doing the things of God and Saul became impatient. Saul offered the burnt offering Samuel should have. Because of this, Samuel told Saul another king would come into power. (1 Samuel 13)

Doing the cheap or convenient or easy thing may cost far more in the long run. I’m going to invest in my car so I can keep it at least another six years or until I want to get a new car.

I’m going to invest in trust and faith in God so when something that requires more faith comes I can handle something bigger. Faith to faith and alla that (Romans 1:17). I’m gonna keep rehearsing the fact that I’ve been here before. And I’ve not been forsaken or begging bread (Psalm 37:25).

When He does it He will get the glory. That’s the point of it all anyway. So that He gets the glory out of my life. You got it Boss!

*The saga continues Waiting Is The Action But Patiently Is The Attitude*

Proverbs 3

*Summary of The Message (MSG) version*

1-2: Don’t forget what we’ve been taught and take the commands to heart because they will help you live a long, full, well lived life.

It is important to remember the words of the Proverbs, but also the “words” of our lives. If we don’t keep in mind what we have been through and what we have learned, we are liable to have to endure it again. Cycles. Frustration. Wilderness. But, if we keep our lessons, what God has done for us, ever before us, we can move on and experience other things because we aren’t needlessly going through the same thing time and time again.

3-4: Maintain love and loyalty, tying them around our neck, carving their initials on our heart. Earn a reputation for living well in God and the people’s eyes

So interesting to me that love is mentioned as something we should maintain, along with loyalty, and carving their initials on our heart. Why? Because love for others, and his love for us, was so important to Jesus. It is all through the gospels (Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John). The Psalmist says they hide the Word in their heart that they might not sin against God (Psalm 119:11). God is love (1 John 4:7). The Word is God (John 1:1). So amazing how the Word confirms itself. It is important that we live well. Later, in 2 Corinthians 3:2, Paul tells us that we are epistles, letters, known and read of men.

5-12: Trust God from the bottom of our hearts, not trying to figure out things on our own. Listen for God’s voice in everything we do and wherever we go because He will keep us on track. Don’t assume we know everything. Run to god and from evil. Our bodies will glow healthily, bones will vibrate with life. Honor God with everything we own, giving him the first and best. We will have an abundance if we do. Don’t resent God’s discipline or take issue with His loving correction. He corrects us because he loves us.

The King James Version (KJV) says with all our heart. But seeing the bottom in the Message (MSG) version hit differently today. The bottom is the lowest part. It still means all. But seeing bottom means, to me today, with every single bit, with every last drop. With everything and all that you have. KJV says not to lean to our own understanding. The simplicity of the MSG version packs a different punch too. Leaning to our own understanding seems to speak to not doing what we know. Here, it is telling us not to be independent but depend on God. KJV says to acknowledge him in all our ways and He will direct our paths. This version is so much more thorough and intentional. Not just acknowledge Him, but also listen for His voice in EVERYTHING because he will keep us on track. This seems like it is saying be humble sit down. Hahaha. How great is it that if we run to God, we will have life and health? Giving God our first and best leading to abundance reminds me of Malachi 3 and the promise if we give tithes and offering.

13-18: Meeting wisdom is a blessing. Insight as our friend is worth more money in the bank, her friendship better than a big salary. Her value is more than what comes with wealth, nothing we desire compares to her. She gives long life on one hand and recognition on the other. She has a beautiful manner, with wonderful life that is complete, a tree of life if we embrace her. If we hold her tight we will be blessed.

I don’t know how much more even needs to be said. Wisdom and insight are so vital and important to us. We need to make sure we use wisdom and insight in all that we do.

19-20: God formed the earth with wisdom, raised heaven with insight. They knew when to signal rivers and springs to surface and dew to descend from night skies.

Same. Y’all. Same. But. How cool is God that He gives us what He used to create the world to enable us to live well and be in relationship with Him.

21-26: Guard clear thinking and common sense with our lives and don’t lose sight of them. They will keep our soul alive and well, us fit and attractive. We will have safe travel without tiring or tripping, napping without worry, sleeping well at night. We will not panic over alarms or surprises, predictions of doomsday because God will be with us keeping us safe and sound.

Being free from clutter and distraction in our mind, as well as having common sense, sets us up to live our best lives without stress and worry, without being tired and falling down. Duh. Lol.

27-29: Don’t abandon anyone who deserves help as we are God’s hand for them. Don’t put our neighbor off for later if we have the money. Don’t find ways to take advantage of a trusting, unsuspecting neighbor.

Hands and feet of Jesus. That’s what I thought. People say that’s what we should be as Christians. Facts. Jesus told us as much. Whatever we do unto those who need it we are doing unto him (Matthew 25:31-46).

30-32: Don’t have a chip on our shoulder looking to fight. Don’t shoulder our way through life being a bully because God can’t stand twisted souls. The straightforward get God’s respect.

I mean. What more is there to say? That’s not who God is. We are to be holy because He is holy (1 Peter 1:16). A bully ain’t that.

33-35: The house of the wicked are cursed by God but the home of the righteous is blessed. Proud skeptics are given a cold shoulder but those down on their luck receive help. Honor is given to wise living. Booby prizes are given to stupid living.

Reaping and sowing. Reaping and sowing. Galatians 6:7.

Injustice

Injustice
Injustice
Where is the justice
Crazy that a man
Gets time in jail
Over fighting dogs
Yet my brothers’ killers
Get off
Sometimes celebrated
Crazy what money
And skin color buy
Charges dropped
For the same drugs
My brothers get life for
Crazy that my brothers
Murdered
Borderline savagely
Shot in the back
Laying in the street
Carrying a toy
Holding merchandise
Running away
Lying unable to breathe
Shackled
Chased in the night
Painted like
Animals and criminals
As if their mistakes
Deserve amplification
And somehow justify their death
Injustice
Injustice
My Lord
Where is the justice
From what I see
Liberty and justice
Just ain’t for all