I love a good ol’ piece of alliteration. I had a breakdown the other day. It was intense but over quickly.
I was told part of the problem was too many voices in my head-other people who are living breathing humans-can lead to chaos.
I didn’t even have to be in the situation to have all of the voices in my head. I compromised on something. I was willing to lower a standard and accept less than what I should.
It was a recurring issue. A test I hadn’t passed at least twice before. I’ve learned the lesson and definitely passed the test. I cannot compromise in that area or any other.
I have to be intentional and focused. I have to set a standard and demand that it be met. Ion have time for the chaos of compromise.
What a difference a day makes. Ha. It’s been a coupla few. I talked to two of the four from Honestly. Half ain’t bad. And I decided to reach out to some more of my ppl. We had an amazing conversation about life. Since they love Jesus just as much as me, it definitely went there.
I said some dope things that we are gonna put on t-shirts. I gotta figure out how to copyright them first. Go figure. A juris doctor who needs a copyright class. In my defense, I took one but it was the history and not the actual filing. I digress. Once I get it together, ima plug em all the time. Lol.
I was talking to my auntie big sis (again, Honestly) about some current happenings in my life. I started with I’m just outchea. Then I said I was out here on faith. And it reminded me of Peter (Mark 6:45-53; Matthew 14:22–34; John 6:15–21) who walked on water.
So many people chastise Peter for losing faith and sinking. But, I’ll never forget one sermon that was different. The minister mentioned the fact that everybody dogs Peter. Then, they flipped it and pointed out what nobody, to my recollection, had over the pulpit before. Peter was the only one to get out of the boat.
I’m in a different season than I’ve been in before. I see my growth. And I sense that I have to be super careful with my words and actions. In a way that I have never been before.
Like Peter, I have recognized Jesus in this situation. Like Peter, I am looking to Jesus and walking on the unfamiliar. It is strange territory. I am going to be careful to not let what surrounds me to cause me to lose focus. I’m trying to talk to him and seek him along the way. But. I know that if I fail to do that, like Peter, I can call out to Jesus and he’ll save me.
So. I’M OUTCHEA ON FAITH!!!!! 😊