I sent my auntie that post and got an update.
She got limited help and has to go to an old school store. She said she wouldn’t have wasted so much money had she gone there first.
The thought that came to mind is the title. Convenience isn’t cheap.
It was convenient to go to the newer, fancier, bigger store. But the convenience didn’t solve the problem.
She got help but not the help she needed. She went with it, I assume, since she was already there and had already spent time, effort, and energy there.
There is something to be said for going with what is tried and true. Sure. New. Progress. It has it’s place.
However. If it ain’t broke…
I’m not a fan of some of what I was taught and went through growing up. It just ain’t it for me after taking a look at it and the Bible.
However. They taught me some stuff, prayer, some songs, standing firm in conviction, that gets me THROUGH some of my toughest moments.
This new music, some of this microwave, quickie, cute stuff ain’t gone move a leaf let alone a problem I’m going through.
At the root of it, the hours and hours of church gave me staying power. Something to stick to my ribs like oatmeal on a cold day. It wasn’t convenient, it wasn’t easy. But it made me.
It would do us and the world a world of good to get back to the basics. Read the Bible. Study it. Look at different versions of the same scripture. Sit in prayer. Speaking and listening. Find some hymns and songs that are scripture based. The hard parts of surrendering time and attention in this crazy, overstimulated world.
Cuz all that convenient, new age stuff, it may be nice. But it ain’t cheaper. It’s gonna cost us more in the long run. We could have spent the time ahead of the storm getting ready with the expensive, time-consuming foundation building. Instead, we have convenient, cheap stuff that doesn’t lasts and costs even more to go back and repair when we could be on to the next.
I called my auntie and she sounded annoyed.
I asked her what was wrong.
She said she was in the store and couldn’t find what she needed.
I asked if she was gonna ask for help so she wouldn’t get frustrated. Maybe I said or should have said stay frustrated. 🤷🏾♀️
Immediately after asking that I went off. I got some revelation from our conversation. Barz. 🤣🤪
She said she was in a different store than usual and it is easier at the other store.
She continued to talk about her options and fuss.
Then she said okay I’m gonna go get some help.
One. How often do we need help but just keep trying to do it alone or ourselves? We don’t seek God or others who could help. Then we end up annoyed and frustrated.
Chances are we end up in a mess that God has to bail us out of that was not even necessary to endure had we sought Him or the plentiful resources at our disposal.
It is so easy for us to rely on ourselves and our own strength. We know what we want and what we are trying to do. We may even be operating in obedience or working toward purpose.
We relied on Him and went or started. But we took our focus off of Him. In ALL THY WAYS (Proverbs 3:6). Not some. Not just through instruction. But. Every. Step. Of. The. Way.
Two. She said she was in a different store and it was easier at the other store. Faith to faith (Roman’s 1:17). Glory to glory (2 Corinthians 3:18). What was easy on one level, in one season, at one time, is more difficult in the next or new.
Once we master a thing, it’s time to move on to something more difficult. Well if we want to grow and move into the next God has.
I have lost focus because this life with God thang is hard at times. I want purpose but the tests and trials cause me to move away from Him. Human.
In a sense, doing what is easier and being complacent is comfortable. Auto pilot. Coasting. But there is a lack of real contentment. Because I wasn’t where I should have been. Frustrated. Easy but wrong. Easy but not better.
It would be like being in 12th grade and doing kindergarten work. Capable of so much. Did what it took, the hard work, to get there. But it’s too much and too challenging so Ima go back to kindergarten cuz it was easy.
And guess what? All that work will be for naught cuz I’m not getting out of 12th grade and on to college until I do the 12th grade work.
Let’s buckle up, man/woman up, and trust God to get us through to where He wants us. He has never failed. And He WILL NOT start now.
I am grateful to see the end of the year mostly unscathed.
I lost a family member to the rona.
Four family members definitely recovered. One likely recovered.
A childhood friend’s mom was lost to the rona.
An asthmatic family member lost their life due to a chemical reaction.
I lost an uncle due to a variety of health issues.
An uncle was rushed to the hospital, and though serious, it wasn’t as bad as was thought.
Two coworkers and a boss tested positive for the rona and have recovered.
I am no longer on speaking terms with my father. 21 years of foolishness resulted in my departure-at his prodding-for my peace of mind.
Endured the craziest three point five weeks with a male I have ever experienced in the middle of a pandemic.
Left some friends-acquaintances-alone.
Left some family members alone.
Reconnected with some friends I let go.
Made a new friend.
Made some new connections.
Followed purpose with expectation of fulfilled vision-from years ago. Not a catchy 2020 gimmick.
Realized some things that I needed to work on and change.
Saw some growth.
2020 was wild.
But the BEST thing? Focusing on the best friend I’ll ever have, my big brother, my Lord, my Savior.
I’ve been coasting and on autopilot. When Jesus and I are cool, winds and waves don’t play.
I ended this year forced to look to him.
It’s been wild.
But it’s been worth it.
Here’s to 2021.
A multiple of seven.
Biblical meaning of completion.
I expect Jesus to complete some things.
I expect craziness. It wouldn’t be my life without some tests and trials.
I know who’s got me.
I don’t expect easy.
But I expect peace. I expect joy. I expect good things-no matter how it looks or feels.
Cuz I rock with the one who can speak to whatever I face.
I am never alone or forsaken.
That alone makes it well with my soul.