Broken Stillness

I just wrote this next paragraph on Facebook:

“Honestly, I needed the stillness my broken car brought me.

These eleven days have been rough yet rich.

There is so much good that can happen when everything is seemingly all going wrong.

I’m certain my life won’t be the same.”

See Conclusion Of The Whole Matter for context.

God is infinite in His wisdom. One of my favorite Scriptures, tattooed on my arm, says “[f]or I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future”
Jeremiah 29:11 NIV.

I have a whole lot I wanna do and need to do. And it is legit for God. Legit. Like I’m not that focused on or concerned about material things.

He showed it to me, had people tell me about it, and gave me a heart for it.

But, I had to be ready. I had to be prepared.

Things don’t grow without rain.

Sometimes you have to till, turn over, rough up, the soil.

Sometimes you have to pull, even dig up, weeds.

Sometimes you have to cut, to shorten or prune, so things grow right.

Sometimes you even have to burn things up.

But, here’s the thing. Another one of my tattoos is this: “When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze” Isaiah 4:32 NIV.

I don’t get to control how, why, when, and where God prepares me. All I can control is surrendering and seeking His help to be postured correctly as He prepares me.

I truly don’t think I’ll have peace or joy if I’m not in His perfect will. Part of me doesn’t want to say yes. But I have to. My yes is too important to too many ppl.

He called me to it so He will grace me through it.

I completely forgot about something I was gonna write until I went to proofread.

Per biblestudy.org, the number 11 can symbolize disorder, chaos and judgment.

I can admit there was some disorder and chaos that needed judgment. Facts.

Because I was still and introspective, focused on what the situation was meant to teach me, I grew. I changed.

“For the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.” Hebrews 4:12 KJV.

That. All of that. I underwent some surgery this week. And I’m better for it.

I am so proud of me and grateful to God that I matter to Him as much as I do. The grace. The mercy. The patience. The love. The intention. The care. The concern. The provision. The fact that He deems me worthy to be used by Him. The forgiveness. The long-suffering. Sheesh.

Aight. I could go on and on. But ima head out.

Go be great. Someone is counting on it.

Compromise is a Catalyst for Chaos

I love a good ol’ piece of alliteration. I had a breakdown the other day. It was intense but over quickly.

I was told part of the problem was too many voices in my head-other people who are living breathing humans-can lead to chaos.

I didn’t even have to be in the situation to have all of the voices in my head. I compromised on something. I was willing to lower a standard and accept less than what I should.

It was a recurring issue. A test I hadn’t passed at least twice before. I’ve learned the lesson and definitely passed the test. I cannot compromise in that area or any other.

I have to be intentional and focused. I have to set a standard and demand that it be met. Ion have time for the chaos of compromise.

Proverbs 28 (The Message MSG)

If You Desert God’s Law

1 The wicked are edgy with guilt, ready to run off
    even when no one’s after them;
Honest people are relaxed and confident,
    bold as lions.

When the country is in chaos,
    everybody has a plan to fix it—
But it takes a leader of real understanding
    to straighten things out.

Huh.

The wicked who oppress the poor
    are like a hailstorm that beats down the harvest.

If you desert God’s law, you’re free to embrace depravity;
    if you love God’s law, you fight for it tooth and nail.

Justice makes no sense to the evilminded;
    those who seek God know it inside and out.

It’s better to be poor and direct
    than rich and crooked.

Practice God’s law—get a reputation for wisdom;
    hang out with a loose crowd—embarrass your family.

Get as rich as you want
    through cheating and extortion,
But eventually some friend of the poor
    is going to give it all back to them.

God has no use for the prayers
    of the people who won’t listen to him.

Wow. I could say more and have had thoughts similar. Wow is all I’ll say.

10 Lead good people down a wrong path
    and you’ll come to a bad end;
    do good and you’ll be rewarded for it.

11 The rich think they know it all,
    but the poor can see right through them.

12 When good people are promoted, everything is great,
    but when the bad are in charge, watch out!

13 You can’t whitewash your sins and get by with it;
    you find mercy by admitting and leaving them.

14 A tenderhearted person lives a blessed life;
    a hardhearted person lives a hard life.

15 Lions roar and bears charge—
    and the wicked lord it over the poor.

16 Among leaders who lack insight, abuse abounds,
    but for one who hates corruption, the future is bright.

17 A murderer haunted by guilt
    is doomed—there’s no helping him.

18 Walk straight—live well and be saved;
    a devious life is a doomed life.

Doing Great Harm in Seemingly Harmless Ways

19 Work your garden—you’ll end up with plenty of food;
    play and party—you’ll end up with an empty plate.

20 Committed and persistent work pays off;
    get-rich-quick schemes are ripoffs.

21 Playing favorites is always a bad thing;
    you can do great harm in seemingly harmless ways.

Man.

22 A miser in a hurry to get rich
    doesn’t know that he’ll end up broke.

23 In the end, serious reprimand is appreciated
    far more than bootlicking flattery.

24 Anyone who robs father and mother
    and says, “So, what’s wrong with that?”
    is worse than a pirate.

25 A grasping person stirs up trouble,
    but trust in God brings a sense of well-being.

26 If you think you know it all, you’re a fool for sure;
    real survivors learn wisdom from others.

27 Be generous to the poor—you’ll never go hungry;
    shut your eyes to their needs, and run a gauntlet of curses.

28 When corruption takes over, good people go underground,
    but when the crooks are thrown out, it’s safe to come out.