Insecurities & Disqualifications

I think it is so interesting how God uses things and people that are insecurities or lack of qualifications.

My pastor taught us about Colossians and Paul during Bible class. He gave us some of Paul’s history.

The way Paul opened some of his letters seemingly points to his insecurity about how he came to be an Apostle. And it seems like it is more because of the other Apostles’ reactions and not anything he felt on his own.

Let’s be real though. Can you blame them for feeling some type of way? I give them initial feelings. But, if they kept it up, that’s not okay. Who knows though.

Cuz don’t we stay in our feelings sometimes long after whoever did it has moved on?

Paul was seemingly the most unqualified due to his persecution of the Christians. But God turned it. He is, after all, the author of Romans 8:28.

Ima run a list of the people I can think of who messed up or had things they thought stood in their way or who people counted out or who never should have been as impactful as they were.

Noah: it had never rained yet he said it would. They laughed. Then they drowned. Buddy got drunk and it wasn’t nothing good.

Abraham: worshiped pagan gods but followed God. Lied about Sarah being his wife and sister (just said sister) twice. Had a baby that wasn’t the promised child.

Jacob/Israel: tricked his brother out of his birthright then let the women and children in his life come in contact with the brother who had wanted to murder him before him (I mean if Esau was ready to fight they would have been killed first and Jacob could have run).

10 of Israel’s sons: sold Israel’s favorite son Joseph into slavery and lied to him about Joseph’s death.

Moses: murdered an Egyptian after being a Hebrew living with the king who enslaved the Hebrews. Had a speech impediment.

Samson: in relationship with a woman who wasn’t his wife who He told about where his strength was so he ended up weak, bald, and blind.

Rahab: a harlot (sex worker).

Esther: a young Jewish girl who was a part of the group one of the non-Jewish king’s right hand man wanted to destroy.

David: an overlooked boy sent to the field who his family couldn’t bother to call in at first when the prophet came to anoint the new king. Slept with a woman and had her husband killed because he got her pregnant when he should have been at war and her husband wouldn’t sleep with her to cover up the pregnancy because they were at war.

Samuel: his mother couldn’t even get pregnant for the longest so his existence was an answered prayer against long odds.

Isaac & Joseph: I couldn’t think of anything for them at first but I guess the same goes for them and their conceptions. And Joseph wasn’t disqualified but his brothers did what they did which surely should have resulted in the inability of his dreams to come true.

Ruth: widowed by a foreigner in her home land who then travels to the foreign land of her deceased husband with his widowed mother.

Jeremiah: young and inexperienced.

Nehemiah: in captivity but wanting to restore the city of God.

Mary: a teenage virgin engaged to be married when she was overshadowed by the Holy Spirit and impregnated with Jesus.

John the Baptist: his parents were unable to conceive and he ended up being out in the wilderness talking about some man coming after him

Jesus: a lil carpenter’s son who wasn’t formally trained in the Synagogue saying and doing things that were not the custom or in line with what they saw their Scriptures at the time to say.

Peter: lied and denied his relationship with Christ

Me: a fast talking reader who is rebellious to some in my interpretation of the Bible

Every one of these people, including me, was chosen by God and helped make an impact for His kingdom.

DO NOT despise your journey.

DO NOT despise your past.

A testimony is a story about the tests you were able to eventually pass. It is a testament to the power of Jesus and what He was able to mold as the Potter with the clay of your life.

Oooooooh this is about to be so good to me.

After all. All we are is dirt.

To make pottery, clay is used. Clay is comprised of a substance similar to dirt. Water is added to turn it into clay.

Jesus is the living water that turns our dirt into clay. He puts us on a wheel and shapes us. We make mistakes and He has to add more water or reform the piece.

Just like humans who make pottery. It isn’t discarded. It is reused until it has taken the proper form.

Then we get put in the fire. Set. Then we get painted and decorated. I believe put in the fire again. Set.

Get up from where you are.

David was told that the first baby would die. He went and fasted and prayed hoping God would turn it around.

God didn’t. When he found out the baby was dead, he got up, cleaned up, and went and ate. He accepted the consequences of his actions. He didn’t wallow in his failure. He knew the God he served.

My pastor also talked about this. He ended up marrying Bathsheeba and having another child. Solomon. Who would become king and build the temple-what we all go to when we go to church.

He can use it all. No thing or time wasted. No mistake is too big that you can’t come back from it.

That is part of the point of His death on the cross. To extend grace and mercy and provide everything we need to live a life pleasing to Him. To overcome sin and be a reflection of Him.

Give it to Him and let Him change your story for His glory.

Go be great. Someone is counting on it.

(I wrote a follow up. What Do You See.)